Okay. This is the next chapter. It is not perfect but it is adequate enough 4 fanfiction. I hope you guys enjoy reading this chapter. A. Oh and FYI if you don't like sexual stuff then don't bother reading the next chapter.
A series of images ran through Deryn's head.
Memories of her past and current life seem to pass by in a blur. She saw yellow flames surround her father, her mother's voice echoing along the halls of her old home, her brother announcing that he was joining the navy. Slowly the images seem to slow down, she saw herself standing in a line of men with her head held higher than the rest, and she saw snow and ice surround the bodies of brave soldiers who died defending the Leviathan. And then from the shadows she saw a figure approach.
He crouched low and surrounded her, Deryn could feel herself slowly suffocating in its embrace, and she felt the figure all around her even though she could see nothing. Then a voice broke through;
Dylan. Please wake up. It's me
The voice was so deep and so pleading Deryn couldn't ignore it. She felt her conscience slowly awaken and she instantly found herself in another place.
The first sensations she felt came from around her upper torso, it felt as if a great weight was lifted and she was allowed to breathe deeply again. She then sensed an enormous amount of heat that pressed down upon her from all sides. Then she felt him.
Deryn opened her eyes half hoping that her body wasn't lying to her.
Her gaze met with Alek's. His green eyes were scrutinizing her own searching for something that Deryn couldn't see. He was holding her. His body firmly pressed against her own, his face merely four inches away from her's. And Deryn was completely aware of it.
"Barking Spiders! What- what are you-"
"You fainted." His face was so serious and so devoid of emotion Deryn shifted in his arms.
He went on;
"I'm sorry for what I did. I didn't mean to look there but it couldn't be avoided since I thought that you were-"That's when Deryn realized her chest was completely exposed and pressed against him.
He knows. Everything suddenly stopped. All that existed was Deryn and the man who was now holding her. He knows. He knows. He Barking Knows!
Nothing mattered anymore. He knew her secret and he found out in the worst way possible. He had literally seen her for who she really was. No longer would anything be the same. His voice had said it all, he was mad; he was disgusted, and quite possibly appalled. Deryn couldn't handle it, the whole situation was too much, she tried to push him away, she wanted nothing more than to leave, she didn't want to see that look on his face.
But he wouldn't let her go.
Just one word and it felt like a hot iron hitting Deryn's stomach. How could she answer? How could he understand? Would it all change if she told him?
"I-I wanted to tell you but-I" For a moment she lost her train of thought as she felt him hold her tighter.
"Look, I always had a dream of flying in the skies. It's all I ever really wanted; the problem was the only people allowed to be in the skies were people in the navy. So..I figured that-"
"If you disguised yourself and joined the navy that you would be able to get on an airship and live your dream?."
He shook his head; "Even at the cost of your own life? War is no place for a wo-"
"Don't give me that clart, I have every right to serve my country just like the rest of these ninny's. Why should I be denied just because I'm a girl?"
He loosened his grip on Deryn, she quickly clutched the top of her shirt trying to conserve as much decency as she could.
"You didn't have to open up my shirt, I would have been fine eventually." Deryn looked away from Alek; despite herself she couldn't help but feel glad that at least he knew now. No more lies.
Still having an exposed chest was something that even she could not tolerate.
"I'm sorry. I didn't know. If I had then I wouldn't have
He looked away shame faced, Deryn knew he didn't mean to peek in, and that he wasn't trying to be a pervert, besides it is my fault for not telling him that crucial information.
Deryn gently raised her hand and touched Alek on the cheek;
I trust you Alek. I know you're not that much of a bum rag to do that".
He looked up at her, his previous anger seemed to have disappeared, it was replaced with acceptance and a hint of slight regret.
"Where I come from, only your husband should be allowed to see let alone touch you in those
Without thinking, and letting her body move closer to him Deryn said;
"When it comes to you Alek
as long as there's fair warning I don't really mind."
She then let go of her shirt and watched as is fluttered down her ribs exposing her midsection but surprisingly covering her breasts.
Alek lifted his eyes from the floor and looked at Deryn swallowing hard. His cheeks began turning a dark shade of pink as he tried to keep his eyes from traveling. After a minute or two he still didn't look at her his face completely unreadable, Deryn was starting to feel rather foolish and was beginning to raise her hand to re-button her shirt. That whole time waiting she didn't know what to expect, she wasn't even sure if she wanted him to look at her in that way, they were friends now despite the whole Clanker and Darwinist war they were friends, would this indiscretion of hers be the cause of their friendship ending? Deryn didn't want to think about that.
"Is Dylan your real name?" Aleck choked out suddenly, still looking away.
"Its Deryn..Deryn Sharp". Of all the things he could have said he simply asked for her name, odd.
"Deryn" he whispered the name more to himself then to her, an electric wave passed through Deryn's body as he said that word, it somehow felt right the way he breathed it out from his lips.
"It's a very nice name, I like it" He shifted his gaze to Deryn "It suits you".
This more then anything surprised Deryn, of all the things he could have said he ended up complimenting her name. Unbelievable.
"Your not going to yell or get mad at me for lying to you?"
She locked her eyes with his, the question seemed to confuse him and after a moment he tilted his head to the side and simply responded;
"No, its not your fault you had to resort to such methods to fulfill your dream, and I'm not one to judge anyone else for acting against the system. Besides
its not like your any different than before, I mean its just your gender that's different not you.." He trailed off and paused he shook his head;
"What I'm trying to say is I
understand why you did this even though I'm completely against it. And I sort of get why you didn't tell me before. It's not every day you admit to a Clanker that your secretly a girl." He smiled awkwardly to himself and looked again at Deryn.
At this point Deryn was at a loss for words. Not only had he accepted her for who she was he even forgave her for lying to him. It was even more then Deryn could ask for, no longer would she have to hide who she really was in front of him and worry about what he might think. She felt tears starting to form in her eyes, but instead of letting them fall down her face to show Alek just how relieved she was she leaned closer without a second though and firmly planted her lips on his mouth.
It was foolish on her part to even touch him at this point, something she was well aware of, but it didn't seem to matter anymore, nothing seem to matter anymore, not her position as a solider, not her issues with her mother, not even doctor Barlow's blasted eggs!